Can't win 'em all!

As i sit here trying to rack my brain for what to write about on my first blog, I'm plagued with different thoughts and ideas. Do I just give a brief synopsis of my life.. putting all of life's ups & downs on centerstage? No, too soon. Wouldn't want to turn people off with my forwardness. Should I delve into my first controversial topic, off the bat.. no.. don't wanna scare all of you away, already ;) kidding. As I sit here I'm worried about what people will think when I open up.. share my innermost thoughts.. my struggles, my heartaches, my truths.

Then I remember my son & I's conversation this morning:

"Mom, do you think people will like my new Batman backpack". He looks up at me behind his new prized possession. A cool new bookbag, a gift he was given. Cool pockets & pictures of Batman. Its his new kindergarten bag.. he's of course excited. This is my 5 yr old, Ethan. He's very much into what others think.. whether they'll like it, whether someone will comment on how cool it is..  This is a trait I possessed when younger, so maybe it's not so bad. It might've led me to who I am now, what I think fueled me into this outspoken person I am.

"Honey, do you like it?" "Ya its so awesome!" I take a deep breath & say. "Then please don't care about if others will like it or not.. isn't the fact that you love it, enough? That's all that matters. You should never change how you feel about something because another person doesn't like it!" I pause & quickly rebuttal with "WAIT, unless of course its a girlfriend I don't approve of her when you get older. In that case you better care". I wink at him. Of course kidding, kind of. ;)

So in a nutshell, I promise to be as authentic as authentic can be. To write whatever's on my heart & mind, and not alter my filter. To give my honest account on life and what its made of.. and if you don't like it.. I'll direct myself to the advice I had for my 5 yr old.. "all that matters is if you like it" 

Basically, it's impossible to please everyone.